A Close Up

I went to the animalstore today and cried over all the puppies in the cages. The world is cruel and so am I cause I cant save them!! The woman in the store thought I was mad. After I cried a little more and went to  El corte inglés and asked the cigarette man if I could buy cigarettes without tabaco. He thought I was mad too. I'm just trying to quit my bad habbits I said. Then I went to the makeup department and tried on all  lipsticks at once, every color. My lips turned blue.
I'm alone alot, I'm trying to look closer and closer at myself.
Seriously. Who am I?